HOPEFULLY this one is better than the last!

i was getting ready and i heard my watch ringing- followed by my cell phone very faintly. so i answered the phone and it was a lady who was interested in scheduling an interview with me to work at some hotel, i had been talking to her on indeed because she said my experience at sabathani community center would help a lot at their hotel and she was interested in talking to me about a job there. i didn't really expect her to call today but it's good that she did, so i could get an in-person interview scheduled with her tomorrow.
i just had ics and i'm not really sure i should be expecting all the ics workers to help me do what I want help with even though they get PAID FOR IT. it seems like the only ics worker who really wants to help me with my move to concord is zen and all the other ones think they shouldn't have to help me.. except for abdul and this other ics worker i forget his name. i just hope i don't miss any opportunities for housing because i called concord myself today and asked them what the next steps were for housing and the lady acted like she didn't know what i was talking about, so i explained that i had to reject my last housing offer and they gave me another offer, so i wanted to know the steps. the lady said, "yeah.. i remember you rejecting the last offer.. but there's no housing opportunities available here right now.." so i'm not sure if it was some other housing company or if i misunderstood- because i'm almost positive that zen said that we'd have to talk to amy about making a trip to see this other apartment. zen doesn't come into work again until tomorrow and the ics meeting we have scheduled with each other is at the time as the interview i scheduled my interview with the hotel just about an hour ago. hopefully if i get hired at this hotel, it's not like the last time i got hired at a hotel when they tried to move me into the breakfast attendant position because that's the only opening they had when i interviewed for the FRONT DESK position. i'm pretty sure if i got a job working at a hotel in minnesota, i'd probably be a little more satisfied with living in this particular state because then i'd at least be doing something CONSTUCTIVE and RESPONSIBLE to keep my mind off of shit that goes on with me. i can't get that from being a mindless-handicap client of courage kenny. i know because i wasted at least 5 years doing that shit while getting absolutely NOTHING accomplished that i couldn't do safely and independently at my own damn apartment. attending that dump (courage kenny) would just make me feel vulnerable and give people a reason to think i was too handicapped to do anything because i attended a rehabilitation "institute" for other vulnerable adults who are disabled. PLUS- NOTHING i did at courage kenny is even relevant to anyone anymore- so WTF makes people think i wanna go back to a place where people don't recognize anything i do? DO PEOPLE REALLY THINK I'M THAT FUCKIN STUPID?! i don't have time for that shit. my presence is more valuable than that.